July 2021
Well, friends, this isn’t exactly a regular blog post, but I’ve been working on the one I began in February (yes, February) and I keep telling myself that I need to finish it. In the meantime, here’s something that I posted on one of my social media outlets that I thought was worth sharing here as well. I didn’t start out planning to write the commentary at the end, but felt prompted to share it and I’m glad that I did. There was a surprising number of friends that read and replied to my long social media post. So, maybe you’ll get a laugh and something more out of it as well…
::::Dr. Conversation Today::::
Dr: [Scene – Older man with a Middle Eastern accent with a slight vision problem leaning in typing and looking at the computer screen while talking with me] (Small talk about life since my last visit a few months ago – he has a good memory and then…) “You should think about having kids soon.” (He also mentioned this a couple of visits ago.)
Me: “Yeah, well, I’m missing an important factor there.” (He knows I’m single though… )
Dr: “Go find someone.”
Nurse: [Eyes wide in shock]
Me: (Eyebrows raised and slightly amused with a sideways grin on my face, somewhat annoyed that he seemingly thinks this is so easily done without much thought or care.) “It’s not like I can just go find any Tom, Dick, or Harry for that.”
Dr: “Any Tom will do.” (This comment could have gone sideways had he chosen another one of the three. Ha ha – I was glad that he didn’t.)
Nurse: [Clearly embarrassed, but also used to his well-meaning bombastic comments.]
Me: “I’m pretty sure my mom would disagree.” (and me)
Dr: (pointing to the screen) “Do you see that number right there? – It’s not a Rolex number, that’s your age. You need to think about having kids soon.”
Nurse: [Eyes wider and looking as though she wants to escape the room.]
Me: A few comments about this topic and other things in my life.
Dr: Comments about me needing to refocus my spare time from finding real estate deals (a side gig of mine) to elsewhere before I get much older when it comes to this area of life…
Me: [Thinking to myself hours after I’ve left his office] (I’d love to bring a “Tom” to my next appointment just to see his expression and hear what he would say about such a quick turnaround! For some reason I think he’d be just fine with it.)
This Dr and I have had some interesting chats over the years. Some of his bluntness is masked by his accent. I like his straight talk when it comes to medical things, but sometimes in this area it makes me think about things that I tend to tuck away (even though he is right). Life has not gone as I planned – not for my 10 year plan after high school, and definitely not for life beyond that. I’ve begun to somewhat reimagine things – they haven’t totally changed, but they’ve shifted. I’m praying, hoping, and waiting (albeit impatiently at times – really more often than not) in various areas of life, and as much as I want to give up on some things, or settle, there’s part of me that just won’t allow it. I’ve been through too much to allow that.
I’m holding on to so many promises and reminders that the Bible gives us and waiting expectantly (as best as I know how). Hebrews 10:23 tells us, “Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise.” While this verse speaks of our promise in Christ’s sacrifice for us, it’s also a reminder of all the other ones mentioned in Scripture – that He is faithful and cannot lie (Hebrews 6:18). And, it makes me wonder how much some of my desires might be providentially influenced – Psalm 37:4, “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” And trust me, I can dream up some things, but I’m also praying for an Ephesians 3:20 type of life and a Hebrews 11 type of faith to get there.
The hardest part though… being still. Psalm 46:10 says, “Be still and know that I am God.” Stay tuned friends, stay tuned. My heart and mind have been thinking about this area of life (and others) in a couple of ways, but only God knows how it will end. Time will tell.
Well friends… hope you got something out of this “short” blog post. Until next time…
God Bless,
Penelope G..
The song for this blog post is “Haven’t Seen It Yet” by Danny Gokey
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XE2NAzqSDPQ
Have you been praying and you still have no answers?
Have you been pouring out your heart for so many years?
Have you been hoping that things would have changed by now?
Have you cried all the faith you have through so many tears?
Don’t forget the things that He has done before
And remember He can do it all once more
It’s like the brightest sunrise
Waiting on the other side of the darkest night
Don’t ever lose hope, hold on and believe
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
You’re closer than you think you are
Only moments from the break of dawn
All His promises are just up ahead
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
Maybe you just haven’t seen it
He had the solution before you had the problem
He sees the best in you when you feel at your worst
So in the questioning don’t ever doubt His love for you
‘Cause it’s only in His love that you’ll find a breakthrough, oh
It’s like the brightest sunrise
Waiting on the other side of the darkest night
Don’t ever lose hope, hold on and believe
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
You’re closer than you think you are
Only moments from the break of dawn
All His promises are just up ahead
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
Maybe you just haven’t seen it
He is moving with a love so deep
Hallelujah for the victory
Good things are coming even when we can’t see
We can’t see it yet, but we believe that
He is moving with a love so deep
Hallelujah for the victory
Good things are coming even when we can’t see
We can’t see it yet, but we believe that
It’s like the brightest sunrise
Waiting on the other side of the darkest night
Don’t ever lose hope, hold on and believe (Don’t ever lose hope)
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
(Just haven’t seen it yet)
You’re closer than you think you are (Think you are)
Only moments from the break of dawn
All His promises are just up ahead
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
(You gotta hold on, hold on)
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet (Hold on)
Maybe you just haven’t seen it, just haven’t seen it yet
(Just haven’t seen it yet)